Saturday, December 24, 2005

Convergence

In the toy district of downtown L.A., many different people’s lives converge together. There are the store owners, many of them Asian. There are the store employees, majority of them illegal Mexicans. There are the homeless, most of them African-American. Finally there are the customers who come from all different ethnic groups. And our relationships are built based upon need.

The prevailing odor in the air is dried up urine since the homeless have nowhere else to go. Only a heavy down pour can wash away that particular stink. There is almost constant traffic in the streets during the Christmas season with all of its pollution and noise. Juan, a homeless man, can make up to $120 tax free dollars in one day directing and watching parking spots. I know this because he brings all the change and dollar bills he gets as tip to our store in exchange for ten dollar bills. He has territorial rights on our block and shoos away other competitors. The only time this slim, street-smart man abandons his post is when the policemen come around. Apparently he has a criminal record.

Due to the busy season, we had to hire a temporary worker. Martin is in his late thirties and has recently come up from a beautiful small beach town in Mexico. He left his family and came to L.A. to look for a job to pay for his eight year old daughter’s medical costs. She has cancer. His sincere manner of speech, hearty laugh, and love of toys betrays his inner child despite his hard life. Yet he hates Christmas. I understand now that it is partly because he knows that he will lose his job when Christmas is over.

Jose has been working at the shop for awhile. He is hard-working and has a family to support although he is only in his early twenties. He makes money on the side by recycling the soda cans and the cardboard boxes from the shop. He also saves all the pennies that Juan gives him in a jar. About two weeks ago he didn’t show up for work due to a family emergency. We later found out that his teenage cousin had been shot to death in front of his mom’s house during a drive by shooting. His younger brother was also shot but survived.

When darkness falls, a city made of cardboard boxes and tents goes up every night. It is a dangerous and depraved world.

Today is my last day of work in downtown L.A. on a daily basis. Tomorrow I will head off to Yosemite National Park with Erik’s family and my eyes will behold a whole new world.

This Christmas I wonder why I have been spared from severe suffering. Though I am grateful, my heart has been broken through all that I have witnessed.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Another Purchase

I bought a home exercise machine. This time not from an informertial but from amazon.com. It is called Stamina 1205 Precision Rower. It took about an hour to assemble. It feels sturdy. My arms are even weaker than I thought. I can't even row a full stroke on the lowest resistance level. I should've known when my arms got sore the next day after just holding onto the stationary bike machine for 30 minutes at the gym. Mom told me that if I don't sleep and sit around so much but work hard like her all day I wouldn't need to buy the rowing machine. Ouch. At least she said it with a smile.

I am constantly tired these days. Running a business is very difficult. We've had a tense moment when we thought that we gave away a large quantity of merchandise to the wrong person. But it turned out that they miscommunicated and had two different people come and pick up the same order. We've also had a few madhouse moments. People just go crazy and start grabbing stuff when you tell them that you're running out of merchandise.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Ridiculous

Today someone at the shop asked me if I was ten years old. When I stared at him in disbelief, he asked me if I was younger. That is the most ridiculous thing I have heard in a very long time.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Thoughts on Christmas

Although I'm glad to be helping out at the toy shop everyday during this busy Christmas season, I do miss being able to see my friends. My daily routine is to wake up, take a quick shower, get ready, come down to the shop, go home after an eleven hour work day, eat dinner, clean up, wash up, and go to sleep. Sometimes we've gone shopping before eating dinner to buy necessary items. I do try to stay in touch by calling or emailing when I have the time, but it's not the same as actually spending time with my friends.

Although I'm here in downtown L.A. in my physical body, my mind has been busy thinking of things to do for the holidays like sending gifts and making and writing Christmas cards and wondering if I'll have time to do everything. Last night though a thought came to mind as I was laying in bed waiting for sleep to overcome me..."The good is often the worst enemy of the best." I read this quote in my Perspectives class reader years ago and the truth of it stuck with me.

It's good to spend the holidays with family and friends.
It's good to buy gifts for the people you love and care about.
It's good to write and send Christmas cards to those who matter in your life.
It's good to remember those who are less fortunate.
But are these things the best?
Or do these things take the focus off of what is best?

Sometimes all the busy activities that require my urgent attention, time, and energy do take my mind off of the reason why Christmas is a special day. That it was a day set aside to remember the day when God became a Man in the form of a helpless baby boy Jesus. So that I will remember that I have a God who remembers my needs. So that I will remember that I have a God who has extends mercy. So that I will remember that I have a God who gives generously. So that I will remember that I have a God who loves me. And out of the overflow of His love I can love others.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

White Christmas

I'm dreaming of a white christmas...in Yosemite!!! We booked a cabin last week and already have the itinerary all planned out. I really hope that it will snow while we are there since most of Erik's family have never seen falling snow. That will be so special. The kids are really excited and well so am I. I'm looking forward to sipping hot chocolate by the firepit with the magnificent view of Half Dome in front of me, knowing that I have actually conquered it all the way to the top a few years back.

This will by no means be a physically relaxing vacation since we have many winter sports activities planned. We plan on snoeshoeing, tubing, hiking, snowboarding, and ice skating. We'll also go on a Valley Tour where there will be many spectacular photo opportunities. Hopefully the food will be good at the restaurants there too. Woo-hoo!!!