It rained today. After a week of blistering heat, it was a refreshing mist. I actually had to wear a sweater on top of my long sleeve shirt. I wonder if we're going to have an earthquake soon. The weather has been unusually hot and today it was unusually and suddenly much colder.

Not working is beginning to make me question my purpose in life. Not that I would define my entire life by my job. I guess some people do. Still it does make me feel a bit uneasy about what I'm doing with my life. Someone asked me what my dream job was and I could not answer. I've been thinking more practically and realistically in my job search these days like what kind of jobs I am qualified for. So I haven't really drempt about a job. Maybe I should. I wonder if there is a job that I would actually like to be defined by. Anyway, at this point I would just like to be faithful and hardworking in whatever job. Overall, my attitude towards work is negative. A job is something I need for practical purposes, mostly for the money. The things that are really important to me I do on my free time away from the job. Weird thing is that when what is important to me becomes my job, it becomes a struggle to sustain the passion. I guess because it becomes something I have to do instead of just what I want to do. That's how negative my attitude towards work is. But sometimes it feels good to just do something because you have to do it. Maybe it's a sense of disciplining yourself. Oh well, I hope I'll find suitable work soon.