"Day by day and with each passing moment,
Strength I find to meet my trials here;
Trusting in my Father's wise bestowment,
I've no cause for worry or for fear.
He whose heart is kind beyond all measure
Gives unto each day what He deems best --
Lovingly, it's part of pain and pleasure,
Mingling toil with peace and rest." -Words by Lina Sandell Berg
Tonight I will be attending a wake of a friend's sister. News of death seems to be continually coming my way these days. A close friend in Chicago also lost her Dad. And there are other deaths. So, it's an understatement to say that I have not been feeling very upbeat lately. Which is why I haven't blogged in so long. Depression wants to creep in and make a dwelling for itself. Being jobless and going through relational difficulties don't help either. A friend told me recently that happiness is an attitude. It reminded me of a Barbara Walter's interview with Billy Joel I saw several years ago. Billy Joel had gone through years of depression after his break up with Christy Brinkley. He didn't perform and gained a lot of weight. But now he was remarried, started to perform again, and losing weight. Barbara asked him at the end of their interview, "So are you happy now?" Billy answered, "Happiness is an extreme emotion. Just like sadness is an extreme emotion. I'd say that I am content." Those were very wise words.
Many days have passed without any happiness highs, but there are still pleasures with the pain - a nice refreshing cup of iced coffee or boba to drink, new anime to watch, company of friends, good meals, sleep, free concert at the Orpheum, etc. Life may be hard and take a lot more work than I'd like, but it isn't bad.
There's been a fire that's been raging for four days now. It's on the mountains northeast of where I live but I can smell the smoke. Ashes are building up on our cars in our driveway. The sky in that direction is a dark smoke of gray. Reminds me of the cloud of smoke over Mordor from the Lord of the Rings. When you drive heading north toward the mountains, it gives you an eery feeling. The sunlight is a strange orange color and the sky is dark and ominous. Kinda feels like the end of the world. To top it all off, it's been over 100 degrees all week.
Strength I find to meet my trials here;
Trusting in my Father's wise bestowment,
I've no cause for worry or for fear.
He whose heart is kind beyond all measure
Gives unto each day what He deems best --
Lovingly, it's part of pain and pleasure,
Mingling toil with peace and rest." -Words by Lina Sandell Berg
Tonight I will be attending a wake of a friend's sister. News of death seems to be continually coming my way these days. A close friend in Chicago also lost her Dad. And there are other deaths. So, it's an understatement to say that I have not been feeling very upbeat lately. Which is why I haven't blogged in so long. Depression wants to creep in and make a dwelling for itself. Being jobless and going through relational difficulties don't help either. A friend told me recently that happiness is an attitude. It reminded me of a Barbara Walter's interview with Billy Joel I saw several years ago. Billy Joel had gone through years of depression after his break up with Christy Brinkley. He didn't perform and gained a lot of weight. But now he was remarried, started to perform again, and losing weight. Barbara asked him at the end of their interview, "So are you happy now?" Billy answered, "Happiness is an extreme emotion. Just like sadness is an extreme emotion. I'd say that I am content." Those were very wise words.
Many days have passed without any happiness highs, but there are still pleasures with the pain - a nice refreshing cup of iced coffee or boba to drink, new anime to watch, company of friends, good meals, sleep, free concert at the Orpheum, etc. Life may be hard and take a lot more work than I'd like, but it isn't bad.
There's been a fire that's been raging for four days now. It's on the mountains northeast of where I live but I can smell the smoke. Ashes are building up on our cars in our driveway. The sky in that direction is a dark smoke of gray. Reminds me of the cloud of smoke over Mordor from the Lord of the Rings. When you drive heading north toward the mountains, it gives you an eery feeling. The sunlight is a strange orange color and the sky is dark and ominous. Kinda feels like the end of the world. To top it all off, it's been over 100 degrees all week.
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