I became consciously aware of the fact that I have been operating from the point of fear and negativity these days and have decided to stop it. What I mean is that I have been using fear and anxiety to motivate me to get things done for teaching and for the wedding. There must be better ways of being productive and getting things done. From now on I am going to stop worrying about not getting things done on time or trying to impress other people. It is just not worth it. I'm not sure what the opposite would mean yet though. Maybe thinking that I will get things done and then do it? I guess just having peace with God and with myself as I am making decisions?