These days work is my life. It sometimes makes me sad that all I have time for is to eat dinner and sleep. I wake up at 6AM, go to work, and come home at 6PM with still yet more work to do. But with all this working, I am finally starting to get caught up and am even dreaming of getting ahead so that my life will someday soon have less work. Last week I almost had a full-on panic attack after having two meetings with the other third grade teachers and realizing how much farther ahead they are than me. Fear overtook me and I almost cried right there and then but my fear of looking like an idiot held back the tears. I did finally break down in the car on the way to Bible Study on Friday night and smeared my nasal mucus all over Erik's gym towel. The thing that's been worrisome is that I have ceased to have my regular daily bowel movement. I count the days until it comes. Last week I didn't go for four days! I have never experienced stress that interfered with my bowel movements. Today I was finally able to go after three days. I hope I can return to being regular and healthy again soon.