I have less than three months left now before my wedding day and I'm beginning to feel the pressure. I keep telling myself that everything that needs to get done will get done to keep myself from freaking out. Although I feel that I have been pretty diligent in my preparations, the list of things to do just seem to get longer and more detailed and I am not naturally good with details. I guess a slight panic attack every now and then is pretty normal for a bride to be, right? I can't wait until Susan gets back to so she can help me create more lists. She did a pretty good job for my Chicago trip. I am so weary from all the decision making I am forced to do throughout this whole process. I can't wait until this is all over and I can stop making decisions for the rest of my life! Oops, sorry, I guess I just had another freak out moment.

I was at Borders a few days ago just browsing by myself and bought a few items to entertain and amuse myself. I'm listening to one of them right now, "Sympathique" by Pink Martini. Joo, it has the slow instrumental version of the song that we heard in the movie "The Girl From Paris". The overfriendly effeminate male cashier told me that they just got a new shipment in and that everyone was looking for it during Christmas. I must say that I am not disappointed. The other amusing item is a week by week calendar called "The Worst-Case Scenario 2004 Survival Calendar". Let me leave you with a few lines from the introduction.

"It's a whole new year - who knows what it holds in store?

Disasters lurk around every corner. From sledding mishaps in January to hurricanes in July to parade balloon disasters in November, there's a whole year of peril out there waiting for you.

But we can't spend today worrying about tomorrow. Better to face the day head on - with the courage, strength, and knowledge to take on (or fend off) whatever is thrown our way, no matter the season.

After all, life is the ultimate adventure. Live it well. Be prepared. And laugh in the face of danger."