As I was sitting in the theatre watching "Love Actually" I felt myself choke up and tear during one of the scenes. Earlier that morning when Susan had shown me the album she made for her brother and his new wife, I choked up and cried because I was so touched by Susan's love for her brother and the beauty of the scrapbook. It suddenly dawned on me that I had shed tears of joy twice in one day. Maybe it's age or maybe it's being in love or maybe it's another sign of healing because in the past I have only shed tears of pain and my heart for the most part remained unmoved by deep happiness due to the loss of my mom. Whatever it is, it's a good change.