"What are you doing?"
"Why, sitting and thinking. I do a lot of that nowadays, and this is the best place to do it in, as a rule." -Frodo and Bilbo from The Fellowship of the Ring by J.R.R. Tolkien

Having time to sit and think is luxury. I wish I was more disciplined to do this everyday. But it is difficult for me to sit still for very long. If anything, I lay down and think. Journaling is even more difficult. I get frustrated because I cannot write my thoughts fast enough to capture them all. But I do keep a journal and write in it every now and then. It helps me process and solidify my thoughts so that they're not flying all over the place in my mind like a million supermen flying at light speed. I wish I had a place to sit and think where I can get to easily. If I lived closer to the beach, I would go there. Nature is a great place to think.

I have a lot to think about these days. When I go for several days without being able to name and process my thoughts due to the busyness of doing, I start feeling anxious and agitated. If busyness is doing, then maybe thinking is being. Or maybe it's the sitting still that provides peace. It is quite new to me. I usually don't spend so much time in solitude. I find that I like my own company.

"I think your face is flexing more than your arms. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA~" -Susan

My roommates and I have been trying to exercise more for the past few weeks: doing Tae-Bo, pilates, and lifting 5 lbs weights for the arms. I actually have a sense of dull soreness in my arm muscles all day but I guess my efforts are not evident yet.

I'm still playing volleyball too. My team didn't make the playoffs this season by one point. We had taken off last season and lost two team members so it took us awhile to gel together.

I dislike exercising for the most part. I wish I enjoyed it more but I don't. Playing volleyball is fun because it's a team sport and I like my teammates. There's accountability and comradery. It's also nice seeing improvements in your skill. But Tae-Bo and lifting weights are just work. I couldn't do it except that my roommates are very amusing, especially Joo who really gets into it with an "I'm gonna knock someone out" expression and talks back to the video. Pilates is much more effective at the studio but it gets expensive. The video is too slow and soothing, puts me to sleep.

I guess I could talk about the American obsession with physical appearance. Yes, I am vain. I care about my looks, but I am not obsessed. Do I think that people would love me more if I am physically more appealing to the eye? No, at least not the people whose opinions and feelings that really matter to me. Am I an exhibitionist? No. But I care about my looks because it affects how I feel. Not just how I feel about myself but also my attitude towards life. I think caring about my looks is part of caring about my life. Also, I want to be healthy. I don't know that I'll ever get to a point where exercising is part of a way of life for me but I'll keep on trying because it is good for me--for my health as well as for my vanity.

"The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say." -The Fellowship of the Ring by J.R.R. Tolkien

I am intrigued by the Road. It implies travel and adventure. You are going somewhere. You will be meeting new people and experiencing new things. You can walk on the Road or drive on the Road. The Road also leads somewhere, to something. And because it leads, I must follow. I have the compulsion to follow it. But even if there was no Road, I would probably still go, still move, and make my own Road. Am I just restless?

"How about zoron's blog about the unwieldly wumanjoo'?" -Joo

This was Joo's recommendation for my blogspot title. Can my roommate be any more narcissistic? But she is not motivated by narcissism, rather by fame - great reputation and recognition.